I feel like I already messed up in this life. I might sound exaggerate but I’m recently going to college and I haven’t payed anything for my tuition yet. And I have little time to do it and there is so many things I didn’t know college needed. And I know that’s on me and that I’ve been lazy. But is it weird I don’t see myself graduating college or get in at all? And I can’t actually vision my future. Or vision a future for me at all. It’s almost like I don’t want a future for myself.