i feel like im learning a lesson from him, maybe not from his unhealth, but that he admits that he doesn't like much in general. and he's attracted to things that instill that sort of feeling in him/quell the restlessness. maybe i should stop clinging to the idea that i have interests and passions when i don't. this feels overtly melodramatic but i mean it semi-seriously... all that i enjoy is people. that's the only thing that means anything to me. i only really feel happy when im having a good conversation or when i read about relationships, how people interact. is this my only hobby lol? but someone who has nothing else to offer besides their interest in people is either boring or bound to be taken advantage of. i can't stand it when people take interest in me either. ugh!