i just feel so frustration and angry and i feel like everything could go downhill if i react. i was supposed to find help during april when i almost committed but i never did and i regret that the most but my anxiety overcomes my urges and the need for help so honestly idk what to do. like i have no support no nothing and the fact that people do KNOW that i almost committed and have never checked up on me says a lot. ugh i fucking hate this shit i can’t deal with it anymore or with myself i just feel so fucking helpless and frustrated and that i can’t do shit for myself because of everything that’s happened to me i’m so fucking tired of it. and at the end of the day i ended fucking ranting on some random anonymous ranting website cuz i can’t deal with shit. i just can’t believe i can feel so bitter and upset at everything, this was never me before