i want to take all of my pills to od so i can get out. dramatic ik but i genuinely cant do this anymore. im in summerschool, everythings stressing me out, i feel the nicotine urges coming back aswell. my family, friends, and everything is stressing me out. i feel like a horrible person because i never noticed my best friend was struggling and she went to a mental hospital, (shes back and doing better now.) but i shouldve noticed. i talk to her every day. we know everything about each other. oh and also, when i try to talk to my family or friendsi chicken out. i feel like a burden. like i cant do anything for myself because im scared to speak up for myself or ask a simple question. (i have social anxiety so bad to the point of puking, but my doctors just force me to talk to random people at stores and get my own food. its fucking hell.) sorry for this. i love you for taking time to read and respond. i needed this.