Idk my mother. She loves me, then gets jealous of me. It's her stupid bf's; she purposely, I think, believes them more than her own child. I think she's scared of getting hurt. But I would never get jealous and steal "it" from her. It's sad. This one dude, a guy she liked in public, flirted with me instead of her. I always try ot keep a distance from men cus she gets jealous and....yk. gets violent. Then she cries. She's not an attractive woman. doesn't take care of herself "I don't believe in getting my nails done or dressing pretty," like bru that's why all ur bfs left u for other women. anyways. I think she's also jealous I'm white. She wants to be like her one cousin, my aunt. But my aunt hates her too. But my mom looks up to her. So sad. It's honestly probably where I learned to act like this. My aunts. Maybe it's the world who taught me this. idk. I realised it wasn't some ghost telling me to do stuff. It was myself. not anyone else inside my head. js needed to vent.