I genuinely feel like im going insane, like im losing it completely, ive been seeing things and hearing things but nothings there. Ive also done research on bipolar disorder and i think i may have it but im scared to ask my mom about it because she think (black people cant be depressed and have bad mental health or illness). I have all the symptoms and things but im not sure, ive been very depressed and sewerside and i think i should get help but im horrified from mental hospitals from my last visit and i refuse to go back there but its honestly just getting worst. i dont really want help and i cant get help if i wanted becuase my mom is super abusive and manipulative. She keeps touching me specifically touching me when she knows i HATE touch because when i was sakd MULTIPLE TIMES, yet she does it anyway because "shes the mother and im just a child." but she genuinely has issues but i really dont have anyone to talk to but yea hopefully i get diagnosed soon. love yall stay safe<3