i feel like my feelings are too vulnerable for friends. too much for my mom. too little for my siblings. too private for strangers at mental constitutions. and no,i dont have a partner at the moment,but if i were to have one,i genuinely would refuse to tell them about my feelings,not bcs i dont luv them,but bcs i kno what it feels like when u see or hear that ur lover is upset. like,it genuinely hurts. and i wouldnt want that for my significant other. so i'd keep it to myself. and i also dont want to continuously vent to my friends bcs thats tiring,and vice versa for a partner. i dont want to keep it all in bcs i know its terrible for short term memory,even still,i feel like i keep hitting brick walls. and its not like i havent vented b4,it was js never abt my feelings. almost always abt my mom or my past. im terrified that if i vent,like actually open up,every1 will leave. or see that im not as independent or so sure of myself as i pretend to be.