I desperately want to find my peaceful out. I've been traumatized by my stepfather making sexual comments to me when I was 14. I'm 25 now. He had an affair on my mom during COVID. Over the last 3 years he's said extremely sexual stuff towards my sister who is 29. Last month he told her that he loves her (intimately) and when she asked if she's safe around him he said no. He thinks it's fine because we're not blood related. He has drinking problems, and while the only thing I'm thankful for is that he's never been physically abusive, the psychological warfare and emotional abuse is making it hard again for me to want to stay alive. I feel like I'm the only one who realises this entire situation is fucked up and has been for years but I'm not allowed to show that I hate him and I have to swallow my rage and be civil like how every other family member has told me to be. I feel so bad for my mom, her and my sister are all I truly have and I can't get out of this hell. Idk what to do.