I messed up my friendship really bad. Two of my friends weren't on good terms..I was stuck in between....I tried to be neutral to both thinking it will make the drama extinguish later...it didn't...one of my friend group is hurt...one of my friend said a horrible thing about a random stranger they had a fight with..like a really terrible thing...i didnt think much it, and went 'lol yeah'....some other of my friends found out....i feel like i shouldbt have said that....I have done a horrible thing...I feel like a horrible person...I don't think I deserve to live....I'm drowning in guilt...I don't feel like eating or sleeping..