it has been one year and i still miss my summer situationship. he led me on and i know i should put self respect first (thats why im not friends with him anymore, and we dont talk). yet a huge part of me is missing. i try filling it with new people, new hobbies, new interests but at the end of the day i dont have someone to go to be able to tell them how much i am improving. i miss him so much but its weird because i would never go back to him. i know its for the better but every night i lay awake wondering if it was real or not to him. i know for a fact what i had for him was real. i wouldve married him if he just stuck around but it rotted away when he didnt want a relationship and said we were just close friends. i dont understand. we were everything just without the label. im just sitting in my sorrows and emptiness, every time a specific song comes up i just reminisce about how perfect we were. i can still remember his scent, his voice, the way he felt, i remember everything.