I’ve felt so unloved my entire life that I’m constantly looking for someone to be my “number 1 person” it makes me feel like such a creep spending my entire life doing this. I’m sure my friends think I’m weird too. I opened up about this recently but everyone just thought I hated them which was a little irritating but they have their own problems so I have to understand I guess. But it really does suck to not get any reassurance that it’s okay to be like this!! It’s obviously an unhealthy way to live but can someone at least tell me I’m not disgusting yknow? The parts of me that can’t be romanticized are never supported (I have low empathy and other issues with connecting with people,,) they’re ignored almost always and sometimes it’s even confirmed that I suck. Like whatever man why do I even try to improve myself must be nice to be naturally empathetic and pure hearted god. Sorry for the bitter rant ^^; I’ve been under a lot of stress recently so it’s been hard to stay calm