I don't understand I used to feel happy around my so called family members but I feel like as I grow up I keep finding out things that seem to alter my perspective of the people I thought I knew the past 7 years have been difficult I never really got over my problems that started when my parents divorced when they split up I was still a bit oblivious about my surroundings and the happenings in my family but now I notice things I wish I could ignore obvious tone changes when my mum speaks to me, snide remarks my parents say about each other in front of me while they expect me to take their sides how do I tell them I want to pick myself they keep guilt tripping me into doing things I am opposed to whether they do it intentionally or not I have no idea but the result is the same me feeling like I have been split into three pieces two equally big and one tiny one I try to preserve and protect but It gets hard to so that if I cant express myself without getting criticized for exaggerating