I feel like love is unachievable for me in a way. It's not like I can't find someone, it's just that I can't find someone who lasts. I've dated my most successful one was3 years long… it ended shortly after I came out as trans. After that I tried to date had another one but that one failed too. After that, I can't even go on a date. The closest I got was a guy who knew about me being trans and he was fine with it. We talked for weeks on end and actually planned to meet up. We planned where but then when it got to the question of when, he started ghosting me. To be fair it was over a dating app but still it seemed going so well. After that it just looks like I can't find anyone that “matches” me even a little. My standards are on the fucking ground and still nothing. I just wanna find someone (or two) who loves me, I'm willing to cross the ocean for that! I'm just getting hopeless….