i am so mad at myself i wish i had done things differently i wish i could change the past i made so many terrible decisions and deeply regret it now its affecting my mood very badly i feel depressed and miserable because of it it has significantly affected my life in a negative way and now am suffering mentally and emotionally i feel extremely distressed i feel like beating myself up i dont know what to do now i messed everything up i ruin everything these thoughts keep me up at night i dont know what to do now i dont think i can move on i hate my self