why cant i change,why did i change. i miss being the only one,do the ones that filled me with limited effection ever feel that way too,do they miss it. im so unlovable now,pity eats people at the sight of me,every single piece of me isnt right. i wish someone wore my shoes for once,maybe then they'd undertsand. undertsand why i am the way i am,and why im so desperate to chase love or chasing to be loved only to repel from it in the end. i need it now because i want a special someone in my life to wtach me grow before they can't anymore. im not asking anymore,im pleading. how can i have effort for something i had that took that effort,please