I miss who I was, the person I was before him the cheerful strong independent girl. Not the one who begs evrydayy to God to bring him back not the girl who wishes none of this happened like this and was with him all the time even if it meant knwoing he's a red flag and will cheat u or take u as a second option. My eyes are dry now I don't know how my eyes river evry night like an endless sea..