I got into a really bad car accident in July, i broke my femur and lost my grandma because of it. When I was in the accident, sitting there with my broken femur and all- i didnt call anyone my first thought was to text my friend zeal. I didnt think to contact my mom, 911, I had to text him first. We havent talked as much after he basically said to me "let me go so I cant be happier", which definitely hurt in itself but really sunk in recently. He broke the bones in his lower leg, and day after just sent me a snap in the hospital and I asked what happened and he told me- but it just hurts that I wasnt even thought of. Sure he isn't responsible for how attached I am to him, but that doesnt make the fact that I mean so much less, hurt any less if that makes sense.