More heavy rant then ive been seeing on this site, but its helpful to get out. I met this guy named zeal proably about a year and a half ago and he proved a lot of things that I couldn't believe- like forgiveness, patience, unconditional feeling; now we have never been romantic neither of us wanted that. I know I was really heavy with how often I would go to him for my personals issues I had just never had anyone be there for me like that my entire life. He was I think the first person I had a deep conversation with about my borderline diagnosis. He recently moved, and when he did he asked me to "let him go so he could be happy". We still have eachothers contacts but barley talk, and having someone who showed me things ive never seen before basically say I cause misery and he'd be happy without me, and then watching him become a happier person is so unbearably painful.