I want so badly for him to feel the way he makes me feel when he pulls his diapering shit. REJECTED ABANDONED UNWANTED UGLY OLD ANNOYING STUPID INMATURE CRAZY .... I know he dose it to prove a stupid selfish cave man point. If I don't play nice if I don't stay on the car and pretend he's not sitting in the grass getting high and visiting with not just her but my friends too, if I get upset or cause a Seann or a bump in his road then he takes off with her and he turns off his phone. All my so called friends hide them because he has the picket power and God forbid they get cutters off. I want to belive he's not having sex with her too but why won't he answer the phone and why dose it have to be so mean to me . He leave me with no gas or money food cigarettes or drugs knowing I'm to scared to be home alone so I parked and sit all night bawling hoping he will come back but he won't