i have no purpose. no purpose to live besides for just drinking alcohol or vaping. i’m 14, i used to always bully people for this stuff, but now im doing it (plus im transmasc, but that’s not relevant). i never hang out with friends, i barely talk to anyone, and summer break has just been making me realize how much of a filler human being i truly am. i have nobody who would miss me if i were to die. they would care for a week, sure, but then i’d be meaningless. i don’t want to be meaningless, i just want a life like other teenagers. how they hang out ever weekend, have friends to talk to, don’t need literal alcohol to keep them going.. i don’t know what this whole rant is for, or why im even anonymously posting one.. i just want to feel like someone would read this one day and would actually hear my voice for once. i’m thinking of reaching out to a friend tho, so this site is helping me plan how i’d say it out. thanks for reading, you helped a boy’s life.