im bipolar. im medicated or trying to be bc i snap easy at the ones i love and others around me. i tried lithium and it really did help but it made me so tired. but this crap im on now doesnt seem to be helping like at all. i dont want to be on anything really, i was just smoking mary j to help with things but no longer do that bc of personal reasons. it is what it is i guess but its not fucking great. i just want to be happy and "normal" without having to take some kind of medication to be that way. why cant my body produce the things it needs to normally?