I don't know who I am. I hate it and I hate myself so much. Im struggling with my gender and my sexuality. I look like a boy and everyone says I do and I believe it too. Because of that, I started dressing more like a guy because of what people think. But honestly, I feel much more comfortable in male clothing and looks than female. I really wanna cut my hair n shit n be masculine presenting. But spoiler alert, I'm only a christian girl in middle school. And my parents are pretty homophobic. So I'm trying to be more of a tomboy, not wear makeup at all (never have but I'm at the age where most people are starting makeup). And another thing is, because of my religion, I freaking like MEN. IM TRYING TO BE STRAIGHT. But I'm mainly confused and I kinda like girls too. But what guy would ever be attracted to a girl who dressed like a guy? I don't think I'll ever find love. And sometimes I feel lesbian, sometimes straight, pan, or bisexual. There's more but I can't type it all bye bye