I hate everything..but I also love it. I feel like I'm not ever seen enough, and I'm not good enough to even talk about any of my thoughts. I have this massive crush on someone, but how do I confess when we haven't even met in person? I relapsed again. and I feel like the most stupidest person on earth, I just want to feel something. only reason why I do it anymore, I'm tired of feeling nothing and everything all at once. I hate being teared apart every day by others because they want MY attention. Just because I'M the friend EVERYONE can come to! and as soon as I find someone who I can vent to, it just slowly turns to them being like EVERYONE else! I'm so tired of it all..I-....I just want to die. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be here for anyone anymore. I'm tired of them all, I'm tired of myself. I want this to end.