Well, here I am venting to the computer cause I feel so disconnected with humans in general. Sometimes I feel I am not an interesting person because I am not doing back flips in front of people. I am more like a iquana, I blend in the background. I am the person never been seen. I can't help that I am not very talkative at first. I want a real friendship, but I have a hard time trusting people. With intrusive thoughts seeping in, I pull back. I know we are all just humans and we learn different experiences and traumas that mold us into who we are. I can be patient, but the pain of doing so hurts too badly. Emotions. I know it's healthy to set boundaries. Writing in a diary doesn't make me feel heard. So I upgraded to the internet. Maybe I will feel a little validated, maybe. I have to eat a certain diet because I am sensitive to food. Even the healthiest foods. Eh. 1000 words isn't quite long enough. Passing a math equation is exhausting!