im genuinely so disgusted with myself, i contemplate why im still even alive. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore without crying and wanting to throw up. I hate myself so much and i don’t know how to fix that mentality. I don’t feel like i deserve anything, and i constantly feel guilty. I hate having to eat because it’s just a reminder that i’m a disgusting fatass that nobody will ever love. The hate that i feel for myself is genuinely insane, and i often think about how much better people’s lives would be if i weren’t here anymore. All i do is fuck up everything and cause problems. I feel like such a burden to everyone around me, and i feel so ashamed even walking out in public because people have to look at me. I can’t do this anymore. It’s so fucking hard getting out of bed in the morning, all i want to do is sleep forever and get out of here. And even now i feel like such a selfish person for sharing this because there are so many other people that have it worse.