Man I can't even type as fast as I think. But life life's been fucked. I mean everywhere I scroll there's some fucked up shit that happened or found out about or a whole bunch of consumerism on my phone. Lol. I scroll too much. But damn. My life, how im living. It's just hard. Still living with the parents that abused me and failed to protect or do anything about when I got assaulted so it kind of destroys my mental health having to be around them. And all this shit I've been scrolling on my phone makes me feel so overwhelmed and disgusted. But I can't just not when it's a habit and I seek some type of comfort when my man doesn't talk to me. And me and my man's relationship hasn't been going the best. I'm only alive because I want to move out with my man as soon as I hit 18 next year. And time feels so gooddamn slow. I don't even know what to do. Therapy every week, but it doesn't help much, I'm so paranoid of telling them too much and being sent away. The shit on my mind isn't normal.

Empty out of body, and and overwhelming urge to hurt physically

i keep losing loved ones. grandparent got cancer, and my parent passed away. i feel so alone and just tired of losing literally everyone