I don't want to go to the real world yet. I don't want to. I haven't even started, but I'm already tired. I can't imagine what it'll be like if I actually start. I'm tired. The real world is scary. I'm not ready for responsibilities yet. I'm so weak. How am I going to survive out there? I just want to stay in my room. I feel like studying is pointless; I don't think I have a future. I'm just a burden to my family. I just waste money, and I'm not even learning anything. I'm not smart. I don't have a single talent. I have a lot of hobbies, but I don't master any of them. When I learned the basics, I didn't push myself to learn more. I guess I don't have a future. I'm just a burden to my family. I just waste money and I don't help with the housework. I'm also so selfish. I always only think about myself. I don't even care about my mom and my siblings. I'm so worthless. I'm such a bad and hypocritical person, I judge people in my head based on their appearance even though I'm afraid of being judged myself. I also don't have my own personality. All of my personality is just something I've copied.