Ive been trying to get better at talking to people about my problem but I absolutely hate it. I keep thinking "maybe im over sharing" "maybe they dont care" "maybe im wasting there time" "maybe they actually hate me" just so many thoughts. I really hate it, I hate it all. Ive also been trying I trying to stop my sh addiction. But I keep failing I keep screwing up i feel like such a failure. Ive been trying to talk about this with my best friend but I dont know if she actually cares or if im just making things hard on her and its killing me. It hurts I just want it to stop I dont want to feel hurt anymore I don't care how stupid and cheesy that sounds, I dont want to feel like im in so much pain. I just want to feel good I just wanna know that im not annoying, I want to believe that everyone i love, loves me too. I wish I could know how she truely feels about me venting to her. I wish I could just stop worrying about sk many things all thr goddamn time.