(Rant about an ex friend) : I miss you so fucking much it's not even funny anymore. You made me feel good about myself, and you were once the brightest light in my life. I don't know if I can continue much longer without anyone else knowing how much I need someone like you. I thought I could trust you. Poured my life and soul into our interactions and made sure you were ok and perfectly happy. When you were angry, I kept my cool or didn't lash out. I only did that once or twice... I think? I trusted you. With everything. But you threw it all away, so I had to do something. I regret it so much I just wanna put myself back into that hurtful situation I absolutely fucking deserve to be hurt and put down. I wish I could run back so you could look down on me again and use my secrets against me. I know it's gonna hurt me even more but I need something to fill your void I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know what to do anymore what am I supposed to do.