I feel sick with myself. I joke around and in the moment it seems both me and the person I'm joking with think its funny but then after I can't help but overthink it. What if they were just pretending? Did I cross a line? Its bad enough that all year I've already been dealing with my best friend of 6 years wanting to die and fatshaming himself. i made a joke, and he said one of these shaming things again, and i begged him not to talk about himself like that. He just deflected and He won't answer my texts now. I've apologized for the jokes thinking its my fault. I don't wanna lose him.
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