my Mum died a while ago; I miss my mum’s side of the family. It’s been 16 years, and I still have five uncles, but they’re all pushing 60–70 years old, and I feel like time is running out. My dad and auntie (I have a double cousin) hate my mum’s side with a burning passion, so I have a lot of fear and anxiety about contacting them. I do understand my sister’s point about our family abandoning us (I respect her boundaries if she doesn't want to see them). Then again, my dad and auntie had something to do with it too, because they’re toxic. I want to confront my uncles. I want to hug them and ask them to tell me all the stories about the 41 years they had with my mother. My other sister told me that an auntie-in-law reached out and said she wanted to surprise our uncle with us because he misses us. My heart has been shattered, and I’ve been having really bad heartaches for the past couple of weeks. the pain has been sharp I want my family back