I've finally done the one thing I swore I would never do. The mental anguish caused by my severe chronic pain got the best of me. Using the sharp edge on one of my pill's blister foils, I've been scratching up my hips. Not to the point of cutting, but definitely enough to leave marks. I'm too scared to actually cut myself. But seeing the marks add up is both comforting and scary. I feel more valid in my mental illness for finally hurting myself. But, it's scary knowing that the best distraction from my chronic pain is to just make myself feel more pain. At least if someone sees, the doctors might finally do something.
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