i like being around people so i dont have to think im too scared to ask where i can plug my phone in because im scared ill make things awkward so id rather let my phone die than ask a question to one of my own friends im scared to talk to one of my friends because im terrified theyll make fun of interests im in, or try to one up me by knowing more about a piece of media than i do because i just got into it i really need therapy my minds breaking itself and i need help i want help i want to become a better person, someone who can focus and not overthink and loop everything they say in their mind over and over again until they want to die so it will be silent again im scared of it being too silent i fear being lonely i love being around people even if my social battery’s low because then i can listen to them talk and not have to think i think im too dependent on my friends i think i don’t appreciate my friends enough im scared theyre going to leave me so i want them to hate me