I swear I'm trying my hardest bro. I can't fucking do this, they always say "try, try, try" and I already am and then when I fucking can't do or get something they say I'm not trying like what. I'm trying my fucking best. I'm sorry for asking for help and then not showing it during class, maybe it's because I don't think I'm gonna be fucking here by next week. Because I am done. I am so damn done with everything, I've been working my ass off trying to distract myself from my own damn thoughts because if I think tol long I might end on a bridge. Like bitch, I said I'm fucking trying and. And it still wasn't good enough. I am still not good enough. Look I'm sorry for your day and I'm sorry you have to deal with parents and bills and grades and now me. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it... I was just mad and now I don't know anymore man, I just wanna cry and never stop. I just wanna sleep and never wake up because I'm not even good enough to be alive right now man. and I never will.