I am heavily depressed. Not like "sometimes I think about suicide" or "I'm kind of unmotivated" I truly do not see a positive net worth in being here, and the only reason I am is because I don't want to hurt people. I used to be on medication and it made me feel terrible and it made me sick, and I want to start meds because I keep everything so shut in, even hiding how I feel from my therapist. I like who I am everything is just too hard and heavy and sad and I can't bring myself to keep going but I also don't want to take a medication that changes my brain and body and potentially makes me sick or makes me unrecognizable.
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