im so sick of myself. i was horribly sick for so long and missed so much school. i have absolutely no discipline. i hate asking for help i feel like shit i feel so selfish for feeling bad for myself. my grades have gone to shit and i'm always so paranoid that everyone secretly just hates me. i'm too pussy to kill myself and i don't want anyone else to feel like it was their fault if i died. i get sick all the time i wish i just got terminally ill one day and just died. i'm not even scared of dying anymore. it would be okay. i was so smart and good before. i prayed and went to church and i was a good daughter. i don't think i can make it through high school. i don't want to tell anyone because i don't want to weigh them down. i just hate hate hate everything about myself. i can't look at my body without crying and i hate looking in the mirror at school bathrooms because i know i'm surrounded by girls who are so much better than i am. i have no worth here anymore i dont know who to tell