I'll be turning 18 on November 24th this year (2026). I have only felt dread in the past few days, I don't want to turn 18 because it means I'll be graduating next year. Everyone in my family on my mother and fathers side are all so successful, they all have high paying jobs. I'm going to be the first one who can't achieve that and I can't tell anyone because no one truly believes depression is a thing. No one will believe me if I tell them how I feel mentally, its such a huge roadblock I know I won't be able to achieve a career that they'd respect. I feel so shameful and disgusting like I'm a true disgrace to my entire bloodline. I just wish I had someone to talk to who would believe me, who could understand me who could tell me that it's going to be okay.