I was in a situationship with this guy for 7 months from December to July. I realized that you never really know in the moment how much love you have for them, not at least after seeing yourself do things that are extreme, unexpected decisions that you never saw yourself making. Admittedly, I had red flags, and looking back at those times, I wasn't mature enough to sustain what we had. I guess that's one of the reasons why he lost feelings and decided to let go in July. Monthly, we would talk, make a move, send indirect signals, just to express that we're still somehow waiting for each other. We were still in the restaurant, but neither of us dared to sit down next to one another. I jumped into another situationship with a younger guy. I never gave him any clarity, showed interest, but not a substantial intention. Although I had interests, I can never lie to myself that I still love the guy from December. During those times, even though the younger guy and I were on and off, I would st