i dont like my life im so tired of it. i have a long time left here but im jst so tired of it. i dont think the rest of my life will be even good. i just wished i had a way to just exit out this place peacefully. i have this super important test that decides what school i can get into and i dont exactly get great scores. idk why but math i once got 45/50 so i thought maybe i was improving but on the most recent one i made a lot of mistakes. my parents get mad at me because im not studying for it but i just feel so exhausted and empty. school is draining and i hate it sm. i want to go to a different school but i need to take this test iin order to change bc my lottery number isnt good. my parents just shout at me all the time when they only see one side of the picture. but i know im lazy, i want things i have to earn through hard work . i dont like my friends. im left out of things and i dont like how my whole friend group revolves around one person. i want to write more but the limit..