if you are going to have a problem with me, come to my fucking face and tell me. dont go around telling everyone else about a problem that is between you and me. and i didnt even know you were trying to talk to me about anything. it wasnt obvious to me. idc if you call me a moron for it, maybe i am, but currently i feeling like a fucking piece of shit because so many other people know about some problem that i still dont even know whats happening. im so lost, you dont talk to me, you ignore me, its awkward, and yet i am left sobbing for an hour about how horrible of a person i am because i dont want to hurt anyone, and yet here i am apparently hurting someone when i didnt even know that i was. like what the hell, genuinely. dont talk shit behind my back and still pretend to want to talk to me. theres no excuse that i just wasnt talking to you. i went and ran after you to try to figure it out the first time. and now its just this stupid ass pattern that i dont know what the hells happen