okay recently in my life ive been happy for a while and when the distractions leave i feel really negative or like i want to relapse and sometimes i feel like i leave hints that im not doing well as a cry for help but literally no one notices. in the past week i’ve felt the need to drown myself in my own thoughts and sadness by shutting everyone out completely. ive been ghosting them, ignoring their calls texts everything and in particular i have this one friend who im kind of drifting from and it feels weird saying this but i dont exactly like her anymore. most people would consider my beliefs and opinions as woke and i would consider myself educated on most important topics. She is racist and homophobic which is part of the reason why i never want to come out openly as bisexual to her. Currently now i think she is mad at me cause she wanted to hang out when im literally feeling so mentally exhausted and i have avoided school for a bit and i want to tell her, she would maybe judge.