im tired im so so tired, and it builds every day i i feel like every day im being overwhelmed not because im helpless but also because im just letting it happen like watching a car crash in slow motion except its really you watching the car drive by you as you're standing on the side walk before falling into it i just wanna tear my face off can i be someone else? can i do something without someone saying "you fucking suck as a person" or "you are the least most hardworking person on planet earth" for once every day EVERY DAY i feel like im just some flesh body walking around with a brain i feel headless im not there the one thing i want to do in life isn't here and i can't get out of it not in this skin can i smile? is it stupid to want to be loved? to be hugged? to be kissed, or simply know you're cherished, not out of obligation of relation or a verbal request or without feeling like you're being put on trial as to why? i just want to rot away, lying like a piece of wood