I really just don’t know what to do right now. This year in school has been so hard already and I think it’s affecting my mental health (I’m neurodivergent and incredibly prone to anxiety and very mild depression. I think it’s mild at least, my doctor hasn’t made me take a depression test in ages) I can’t focus for shit,I have had two anxiety attacks, my friends hate each other, I can’t keep up with assignments, my chronic pain has been so fucking annoying, I’m so sensitive about everything and I can’t keep my room clean and I’m ashamed how messy it is. I don’t know how to ask my parents or therapist for help and I’m genuinely so upset about all of this. I hate how I look sometimes. I can’t get much joy out of the things I love like art, music, writing and baking. I feel like crying most mornings when I have to go to school. I can’t sleep and stay up too late but I’m planning on telling my mom about this so I think it’s going to get better :’)