i just don't know if I can do this anymore. It's all too much. I don't have anything keeping me going except fear. Fear of dying - only because would it hurt? I don't want it to hurt, I just want to close my eyes and never wake up but then i think to myself, someone else could be going through the same thing - someone I know, someone I love and even though I'll never hear hod much i mean to someone, even though i don't have a reason anymore I want to give other people a reason, I want people to understand how much theyre loved, how much they matter I just don't understand why i don't see it in myself, why logic doesn't keep me standing if you're redding this you're loved