I literally don't want to exist right now. I don't even know why im so upset but I just am. I feel so empty all of the time and when I do feel, it never seems to be enough. im just so upset I missed a team bonding thing and I know its so stupid but I've had a lot going on in my life and that was like the one thing I was looking forward to today. I misread the start time and its smth you can't be late to otherwise you can't go. im just really upset bc a lots been going on in my life and I feel so upset all the time and like never happy and I was really excited abt this and now I missed it. everything's been really hard bc of some stuff going on with a situationship and like I just really wanted to go. I feel like an idiot for crying over it but I really wanted to go