I am in nursing school... and I want to kill myself. My grades so far aren't terrible. I am likely the top of 3 in my lab group and top 5 in my class but the amount of pressure on me to maintain my status is unbearable. I am likely one of the only ones who doesn't use AI to study, which is crazy to say as a nursing major. In the future, patients will be putting their care in the hands of those who were too lazy to pick up a textbook they paid for. I know if I fail, people will think its because I didn't use a "tool available to me". Aside from that, its just generally so much pressure. A 79% is failing, every competency can result in getting kicked out of the class, the tests are difficult and the teachers are vague. I also have research projects to complete. It feels like I have no time to breathe. And when I do, the only think I can think of is either how to hurt myself without my bf finding out or how to kill myself. Idk what to do.