Silly vent. I'm too easily overwhelmed. It's so embarrassing. I just try to seem smart as a response at this point, say something expected or interesting-sounding enough. I just wanna run away from this entire planet sometimes? I won't be too in the past, but I've experienced how being in a bad mental state can pull you behind so much, hence I feel thoroughly stuck rn. I really feel like my teenage years sucked. And never have I heard people say it gets better with age. With age, comes a life around a job, settling down. Taxes are probably going to unreasonably stress me out? I'm not really doing anything fantastically cool anyways. It feels absurd to just push through days of worrying constantly and feel like I simultaneously need to suck it up and put effort into making my life more joyful. I don't have friends anymore. I'm reconsidering life-long dreams cus I just can't see why they matter enough. I'm just coping by venting and escapism. Music. Therapy feels like cope.