my grades are tanking, I'm loosing my love for my sport, my mental health is getting worse, but I'm to afraid to tell anyone I hurt myself, and they tell my mom or smt and they send me away to a ward, I hate myself, the way I look and act, I hate my body and how ugly I am, I hate how everything I evered loves is becoming dull and feeling like a chore. I hate how I look in the mirror everyday and hate who's staring back at me. I hate how I look in everything. I hate that shes prettier then me, and that he likes her, I hate that I hurt myslef to cope. I hate how even breathing feels like a chore, I hate how I'm disappointing my mom and dad. I wish I would just disapire, I wish I could tell my mom about it, I love her so much. I would miss my dog, miss my first kiss, my friends 13th birthdays my sisters wedding, all these thoughts pain me to leave behind but it feels so tempting sometimes, I wish he would notice, so I would have someone to talk about it too, I wish I didn't hate myself. K