Unwanted ignorance Why am I so selfish? Why am I such a hypocrite? Im against these things that are morally wrong to me, but then I continue to do these exact things. Why can't I keep my own promises to myself? I want to be open and free and love everyone around me, but I hate. I don't want to hate. I feel like I get attached to people and suddenly stop talking to them against my will. Was I created to be arrogant? I don't feel, I don't care about whats happening to the world around me, I barely acknowledge how others feel; or even how I feel. Why am I so good at shutting everyone and everything off? Does me not caring about anything make me stupid? Or is it me just being numb? I can't explain why I don't care, or why im ignorant. I want to change, but I care too little to a lot of the time. I want to feel and to love; I don't want to be a robot that's programmed by my own sense of nothing. I feel I know too much but too little at the same time. I think I'm special, that my brain