I can't stand to fully look at myself in the mirror. Like, I can stare for a few minutes either to brush my hair, teeth or get something done, but I feel repulsed by my own reflection. Sometimes I imagine scenarios where I kill myself again and again. I always aim for my head, I don't know why. I know that these are just intrusive thoughts, but I've been thinking about it more frequently, and I just had no one to tell this to without them worrying about me, or worse, misunderstand.